Sunday, February 28, 2010
My clothes
OK so as I said in my first post, I am off to Florida at the end of March. I pulled out some summer clothes to see what I had to take with me. Just for kicks I tried on my shorts from just last year and they just about fell off me!! What a great feeling!!!! Well except now I have to buy new ones, where the hell am I going to find shorts in march?? LOL Oh and also, I washed my jeans this morning and was so excited that I could put them on straight from the dryer with no problems at all, except they are pretty baggy!! So new clothes are on the horizon! But I hate to keep buying clothes, since I plan to keep losing weight!! This is one of those conundrums I am happy about!!
Saturday, February 27, 2010
UGH
I was feeling so good about my weight loss yesterday and decided to have a full blown cheat day. I ended up eating General Tso's Chicken with white rice...OH YUMMMM But then I felt sooooo sick all day! I still managed to do some free weights and toning exercise!
So I woke up this morning feeling really out of sorts, course it did not help that the reason I woke up was the twins yelling at each other, man that pissed me off! But then I got thinking about a phone call I received yesterday. My best friend for over 30 years called me. I could tell something was not quite right. A little background She has neurofibromatosis, more commonly known as Elephant man's disease. Her mother had it, she has it and one of her daughters has it. Her tumors or lumps are not too bad, but on occasion she gets a lump here and there, no big deal. Her Mom had the little lumps all over, her daughter, age 25, has inoperable tumors in her brain...but she is living a fairly normal life and the docs never expected her to live this long..but she is a fighter and will live a very long life! OK back to the main subject, my best friend, Amy. She had a mammogram yesterday and it took a lot longer than normal, they ended up having to call the doc to look at it on the spot...needless to say, she has to have a biopsy next week. The Minute she told me my mind started wondering, I could not focus on anything else. She is extremely positive, which helped me get back into focus, but still, to think that my best friend could have....well you know...It is frightening. She is like a sister to me! Which by the way is funny, since a few years ago, my sister had the same scare. (My Sister btw, is a cancer survivor, she had thyroid cancer. All I could wonder at the time was "If she had cancer once does this increase her chances of having other kinds of cancer"? But luckily she was free and clear and remains that way to this day!} So back to Amy...we have known each other, forever it seems! We have been thru so much together, hell our oldest kids are only weeks apart! I am trying hard to only think positive thoughts, but there are times when I just want to sit and cry! Is it better to hold it in or to let it out?! I am not sure....either one could send me into a relapse (which happened during my sister;s scare) UUUGGGGH!!
So at least I got it off my chest...maybe this will help me to keep thinking and sending positive thoughts her way!
So I woke up this morning feeling really out of sorts, course it did not help that the reason I woke up was the twins yelling at each other, man that pissed me off! But then I got thinking about a phone call I received yesterday. My best friend for over 30 years called me. I could tell something was not quite right. A little background She has neurofibromatosis, more commonly known as Elephant man's disease. Her mother had it, she has it and one of her daughters has it. Her tumors or lumps are not too bad, but on occasion she gets a lump here and there, no big deal. Her Mom had the little lumps all over, her daughter, age 25, has inoperable tumors in her brain...but she is living a fairly normal life and the docs never expected her to live this long..but she is a fighter and will live a very long life! OK back to the main subject, my best friend, Amy. She had a mammogram yesterday and it took a lot longer than normal, they ended up having to call the doc to look at it on the spot...needless to say, she has to have a biopsy next week. The Minute she told me my mind started wondering, I could not focus on anything else. She is extremely positive, which helped me get back into focus, but still, to think that my best friend could have....well you know...It is frightening. She is like a sister to me! Which by the way is funny, since a few years ago, my sister had the same scare. (My Sister btw, is a cancer survivor, she had thyroid cancer. All I could wonder at the time was "If she had cancer once does this increase her chances of having other kinds of cancer"? But luckily she was free and clear and remains that way to this day!} So back to Amy...we have known each other, forever it seems! We have been thru so much together, hell our oldest kids are only weeks apart! I am trying hard to only think positive thoughts, but there are times when I just want to sit and cry! Is it better to hold it in or to let it out?! I am not sure....either one could send me into a relapse (which happened during my sister;s scare) UUUGGGGH!!
So at least I got it off my chest...maybe this will help me to keep thinking and sending positive thoughts her way!
Friday, February 26, 2010
Another weigh in day!
23.5 lbs down!!!! I am THRILLED!!!! I concocted a new breakfast too! I use 2 packages of instant oatmeal (plain) add half teaspoon all natural peanut butter, a bit of honey and some strawberries...YUMMMMMMM
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Weigh in Day!
So I weighed in yesterday and the total lost is 20 lbs!! I was so proud! I decided to have a full out cheat day. I planned on Burger King breakfast, Pizza and wings for lunch and a banana split for dinner! So I had the Breakfast sandwich from burger king...and I was so full from breakfast I had to skip lunch....BUT I did manage to get a 40 minute work out! I did have pizza nd wings for dinner, but the banana split turned into a milkshake made from skim milk and frozen strawberry yogurt! I felt guilty that I was to eat so much I just couldnt do it! For that I am even prouder!!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Exercise
Ok so I decided to up my exercise routine a little today...I have been using Leslie Sansone's Walk into shape, 1 mile walk. I decided to try her 2 mile walk....it is 30 minutes as opposed to 15 minutes. BAHAHAHA Ok i tried!! Do I get credit for that?? I got thru about 16 minutes, I know that is as long as the 1 mile, but this one is more intense...after my body said STOP I decided to do some crunches...see I did not give up completely!! I am determined!! Now my legs feel like spaghetti...but I am glad I did it!
My Comeback
Ok so after a couple days of really watching everything I eat and a bit more intense exercise and a TON more water, I am back down to 249 so I have officially lost 18 pounds...my official weigh in is on Friday. I have decided instead of a weight loss goal, my new goal will be to get into some Capri's I bought about 3 years ago and have only worn twice. The goal is to be able to wear them in Florida at the end of March. I figure it should take a loss of about another 10 lbs...I can do this damn it!!!
Today I am making what I like to call "Poop Soup" or as others may know it as a Cabbage coup (Now you see why I say Poop soup? lol) I love to make it and freeze it by portions, so I can just pull it out and have it at anytime. It is YUMMMMYYYY!! Who knew something good for you could taste so good! It is easy to make...all I do is throw together, peppers, onions, tomatoes, celery, carrots, zucchini and garlic...cook those down a bit then add cabbage, low salt low fat Chicken broth and 1 small can of no salt added tomato sauce, let it cook and voila...Cabbage soup!
I also said I would give up a few secret concoctions I have come up with while eating healthy...my favorite snack or dessert is no sugar added pudding with some strawberries ( I use frozen..thawed of course..it is winter here!)
So we shall see how I do on Friday! OH...my husband told me yesterday that he noticed my jeans were getting baggy! It is his way of telling me he noticesa weight loss...lol Hey I will take it!
Today I am making what I like to call "Poop Soup" or as others may know it as a Cabbage coup (Now you see why I say Poop soup? lol) I love to make it and freeze it by portions, so I can just pull it out and have it at anytime. It is YUMMMMYYYY!! Who knew something good for you could taste so good! It is easy to make...all I do is throw together, peppers, onions, tomatoes, celery, carrots, zucchini and garlic...cook those down a bit then add cabbage, low salt low fat Chicken broth and 1 small can of no salt added tomato sauce, let it cook and voila...Cabbage soup!
I also said I would give up a few secret concoctions I have come up with while eating healthy...my favorite snack or dessert is no sugar added pudding with some strawberries ( I use frozen..thawed of course..it is winter here!)
So we shall see how I do on Friday! OH...my husband told me yesterday that he noticed my jeans were getting baggy! It is his way of telling me he noticesa weight loss...lol Hey I will take it!
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
My Picture
Let me explain my picture, Yes it IS me, but it was me 5 years ago, before I was taken out of work and before I packed on the pounds. It is the last picture I liked of myself. I guess you can say it is what I want to look like again! I will however, put up a new picture once I am comfortable with myself again. More later!
Monday, February 15, 2010
The beginning
MY name is Colleen,This is my first blog. Will it be funny?? Maybe, will it be entertaining? Who knows, will people read it? I don't know! If anyone does read it, I hope I can be a little inspirational! So here it goes!
I have Multiple Sclerosis and I am FAT! Which one bothers me most?? Guess! A little background, I was diagnosed about 5 years ago, worked for 2 years and because of severe fatigue associated with MS I started having memory loss and loss of concentration. Because of this, I was forced to leave the work force altogether. Since I am doing nothing all day long, I gained a crap load of weight and I feel horrible! I often blame my fatigue on the MS, but who am I kidding? I know it has a crapload to do with my weight gain.
I am married to a wonderful man named Paul who is supportive in every factor of my life. Even tho he does not say it, I KNOW my weight gain bothers him, I mean hell it bothers me, why wouldn't it bother him??
So, why did I finally decide to get healthy (I hate the word diet) Well my nephew is getting married on March 27th in Florida AND my son is getting married on October 9th! Plus, I am tired of feeling like crap! So I decided, as I have sooo many times before, to start again and this time get it right. I started eating healthy on january 1st.
My weight that first day was 267lbs...UUUUGH I am only 5'5! Since it has been a while, I am happy to say I had lost 18 lbs..yes I said HAD...the last few days, not sure why, I just have not felt like exercising and I buried myself into a bag of chips...ok so that all said I know weight 253lbs...so I have lost 14 lbs...I only weighed in so I knew where I stood when I started writing this. So now I am back on track! My goal was to lose as much weight as possible by March 10th so I could buy a new dress for the wedding...secretly I wanted to lose 40lbs...but I knew that was too high of a goal. So now "secretly" I will be happy to lose 25lbs by March 10th. Not sure why I picked that day...lol just sounded good I guess!
ok so what am I doing to lose this weight? I am eating lots of fresh healthy foods..lots of veggies lots of fruits...I try to keep my calorie intake around 1100..I usually dont go over it, most times I am below it...but not too far below where I am starving. I have developed many different food concoctions that are low cal and healthy, and most importantly, taste damn good! I will be sharing them with you as we go along. My favorite so far is my "Peanut Butter Milkshake" Oh sounds like a lot of calories huh? Nope...I use skim milk, about a cup, a teaspoon or two of ALL NATURAL Peanut butter, a smidgen of vanilla, and 2 ice cubes, put it in a blender and blitz! When it is done it is thick and cold, like a milk shake! Sometimes I throw a banana in it! It is great to start my day. I cannot remember off hand how many calories, but I know it is not much..i will get back to you on that!
My exercise, I use my wii-fit...I also use Leslie Sansone's walking programs and at times I used free weights(5 and 10 lbs) I like to switch it up, but I usually do the free weights everyday.(gotta have nice arms in that dress)
Ok So I think that is it for now...
I have Multiple Sclerosis and I am FAT! Which one bothers me most?? Guess! A little background, I was diagnosed about 5 years ago, worked for 2 years and because of severe fatigue associated with MS I started having memory loss and loss of concentration. Because of this, I was forced to leave the work force altogether. Since I am doing nothing all day long, I gained a crap load of weight and I feel horrible! I often blame my fatigue on the MS, but who am I kidding? I know it has a crapload to do with my weight gain.
I am married to a wonderful man named Paul who is supportive in every factor of my life. Even tho he does not say it, I KNOW my weight gain bothers him, I mean hell it bothers me, why wouldn't it bother him??
So, why did I finally decide to get healthy (I hate the word diet) Well my nephew is getting married on March 27th in Florida AND my son is getting married on October 9th! Plus, I am tired of feeling like crap! So I decided, as I have sooo many times before, to start again and this time get it right. I started eating healthy on january 1st.
My weight that first day was 267lbs...UUUUGH I am only 5'5! Since it has been a while, I am happy to say I had lost 18 lbs..yes I said HAD...the last few days, not sure why, I just have not felt like exercising and I buried myself into a bag of chips...ok so that all said I know weight 253lbs...so I have lost 14 lbs...I only weighed in so I knew where I stood when I started writing this. So now I am back on track! My goal was to lose as much weight as possible by March 10th so I could buy a new dress for the wedding...secretly I wanted to lose 40lbs...but I knew that was too high of a goal. So now "secretly" I will be happy to lose 25lbs by March 10th. Not sure why I picked that day...lol just sounded good I guess!
ok so what am I doing to lose this weight? I am eating lots of fresh healthy foods..lots of veggies lots of fruits...I try to keep my calorie intake around 1100..I usually dont go over it, most times I am below it...but not too far below where I am starving. I have developed many different food concoctions that are low cal and healthy, and most importantly, taste damn good! I will be sharing them with you as we go along. My favorite so far is my "Peanut Butter Milkshake" Oh sounds like a lot of calories huh? Nope...I use skim milk, about a cup, a teaspoon or two of ALL NATURAL Peanut butter, a smidgen of vanilla, and 2 ice cubes, put it in a blender and blitz! When it is done it is thick and cold, like a milk shake! Sometimes I throw a banana in it! It is great to start my day. I cannot remember off hand how many calories, but I know it is not much..i will get back to you on that!
My exercise, I use my wii-fit...I also use Leslie Sansone's walking programs and at times I used free weights(5 and 10 lbs) I like to switch it up, but I usually do the free weights everyday.(gotta have nice arms in that dress)
Ok So I think that is it for now...
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